it was late november

& probably only 20° out

but i was so hot

& anxious about an early morning at work

that i couldn’t sleep

 

instead

i thought about you

 

i thought about telling you what happened with my ex

& what i had learned from it

& everything i need in a relationship

hoping that you would want to give that to me

 

i was so hot

so i took off my pajama pants

& then my shirt

but even in only underwear

i couldn’t sleep

 

instead

i thought about you

 

i thought about the first time we would sleep in my bed together

not even have sex

just sleep next to each other

& would we both be hot?

& would we both strip to only underwear

& feel our warm skin on one another?

 

i desperately needed to sleep

but i was so hot

& my mind was racing thinking of you

& i decided exactly what i’d text you in the morning about it

because i knew it was time

 

to start giving you my heart